
I still don't technically know why I didn't get the job, but now, knowing who did get the job, I have a pretty good idea. Some other guy in the tech support department had been "shadowing" there (in other words, getting unofficially trained for the position) for some time now. I, on the other hand, have been offered no opportunities to "shadow" anywhere. Despite assurances by Teena two months ago that she would consider it.
Kinda makes me wonder why they even had interviews? I mean if you've got a guy you've been training for a few weeks - duh, no, you're not going to want to take someone else, unless he is woefully incompetent. So why have the waste of time of going through the motions of pretending it's a fair competition? If it's already a done deal, why interview others and even put out the hope of getting out of the Dell Hell that is the phones?
For a week or so, while I was up for the job, yeah, I was pretty positive. But now, having been passed over for a position that I think I am totally over-qualified for, I feel pretty crashingly depressed about working here. I feel as though I am stuck right here. Is that really good for morale? Why interview someone you already know, through no merit or flaw of their own, you are not going to hire? This leaves me with the idea that there's no real point in staying here. I mean, if I couldn't get the job I actually have some qualifications for, what hope do I have for advancement in the areas where I don't have any skills or experience? I'll stay here a while, just to pull a paycheque, but I'll be spending my days off job hunting and will likely take the first offer that comes my way. If I honestly felt I had a fair shot at that job they may have won some loyalty. But now, I feel like maybe I only got the interview as a feeble attempt to make me feel like I might have a real career. Like they were patronizing and humouring me. Heck, I wonder if my manager didn't tell them to interview me just to stop me from whining about having no opportunities.
We'll see what my manager has to say, but right now I'd really like to just go home and not have to think about this place. Uugh, 4 more hours of this hell today.